Jenn the Sexy Pilot2011-12-15
This 'Heat' Burlesquercise troupe member speaks from the heart. Read her inspiring sexification journey!
This took a lot for me to say but I've been wanting to for a while! So thank you, more than you know! ( a little long ) love ya!
About a year ago around this time I was doing the same thing. I was getting ready for Di's burlesque gala, my very first gala. Wow! What a difference a year can make. To think that not that long ago I was still suffering from social anxiety disorder and was paralyzed by fear, fear of judgement, of scrutiny. Even though I knew mentally my fears were irrational, but somehow they still had an insane amount of power over my entire life. I thought the more I avoided life, the more control I would have. Yet those same fears also robbed me of happiness, and left me with less control then I started with.
My story began when I went to the previous gala in the spring to watch some dancing with a friend, see what this Burlesquercise stuff was all about. Thought to myself, hmmm this lady has some kind of light surrounding her, that I have to be a part of.
I'm not sure how far along in my journey I was when I heard Di's story. How she started with ballet, deciding to try ballroom due to an injury mixed with a little bit of boredom during recovery. She spoke about overcoming her own obstacles and shyness. She mentioned something that has stuck with me ever since, is that all of those special powers, confidence and self value that you see in others is just a learned skill...
Wow I may let this woman in a little, she seemed to have struggled with rather similar demons. Okay maybe, just maybe I can learn this skill set too.
Over the past year, Di has not only been my burlesque teacher, coach, and great role model, she has also been my friend. She has listened to my frustrations, comforted me when I felt like quitting it all, kicked my butt when I needed it and celebrated my triumphs! Once you get to know the real Diva Di, you can't help but love her!
If you keep making the same excuses in life you will remain stagnant! Challenge those little voices that tell you that you can't do something, that you are too this or not enoughn of that! Why not Challenge them to watch you win! The more you challenge those self defeating thoughts the less of a challenge they will remain. Don't get me wrong I still have my moments - but a wise and special man told me to seek progression not perfection (thanks Martin )
Stop criticizing, go back to the joy and fun parts of dance and watch not only your dancing but your life soar!